well, I've suffered from bigorexia since the age of 14 (I'm nearly 28) so it's been half my life.
It was a self dignosis but as soon as I became aware of such a condition it was so obvious it was something I was suffering from.
I'm obsessed with wanting to gain weight, good weight I mean. I used to go out in the hot summer with a t-shirt, a long sleeved shirt and a hooded jumper just to hide my skinny appearance - try and imagine that.
I've not been able to go on holiday since I was 13 (abroad to hotter countries) because I'd have to wear shorts + t-shirts and even less than that.
I remember one time when I was going out on a night and the doorman wouldn't let me in becacse I wasn't dressed right, so my mate gave me a t-shirt to wear and even though I was totally smashed on the booze, I still felt very very self conscious and wanted to leave as soon as possible.
I don't even feel comfortable wearing a t-shirt in the house - my skinny arms repulse me and I hate looking at them.
it's affected my realtionships with girls too.
the amount of activities I've had to give up because of the condition is riddiculous and there's still things I can't do today and I feel as though time's running out (I really want to start playing for a soccer team but I can't because of bigorexia and the clocks ticking with me being 28)
I have been to see a pyschologist for this, depression and social anxiety and yes, he confirmed that it was body dysmorphic disorder - bigorexia is a form of that condition.
I've been reading up on some of the routines that chad has suggested on here and to me, I know I'll find it hard - I'm so used to training with the heaviest weights to failiure on most sets.
I get the feeling that after the workouts I won't feel as shattered as I should?!
can someone suggest a routine that would suit me best?
my stats are:
neck 15 inches
biceps 15ish inches - flexed 13.5 cold
body fat - between 15-20%