Why are you asking strangers on the internet for advice if you won't see a counselor because you don't want to talk to a stranger?
I have no idea how to start a new life, I just thought that was pretty funny but if I had to guess, it begins with a few paradigm shifts, different decisions and thought patterns leading to new outcomes and the discipline to not let the "negative" keep or grab a new foothold.
This is pretty much the mentality to build anything and I would assume a new life is included. External influences can no doubt help bring about a new paradigm or two.
Shit exists in the world. The further you stick your neck out to live the more you find, along with the good. Business, family, life, entertainment et cetera. You just have to be able to focus on the good and handle the shit then let it roll. Family would be tough as emotions make black and white hard to see but you have to call your shots sometimes. If a mountain doesn't budge when you push on it you are probably wasting your time, even if you love the mountain. If it does budge... but that's another story.
As they say, "if you always do what you've always done you will always get what you've always got".
EDIT: I once left a sweet job to build a business and almost instantly regretted it. My cocky self thought it would be a breeze and as my money dwindled and and didn't become MoneyBags overnight I felt like a horses ass. It was horrible.
Made it hard to focus, to see the big picture of my goal, to follow my plan breaking it down blah blah blah. I thought I was headed for the MBA gutter.
I read a book I found to be very helpful, you might like it too. It's called "Napoleon Hills Keys to Positive Thinking, Ten Steps to Health, Wealth and Success".
It has a business undertone but is applicable otherwise. It certainly helped me remember my resolve, shift thinking and today I'm a successfull business owner. I bet it can help you with your humps too if you put it in to practice.