Props to you for wanting to improve yourself and build your base of knowledge. Three people have given you advice. They’ve all been training at least 3x as long as you. 4est, who is knowledgeable with consistently excellent posts, has also told you, with 20 years of experience, not to cut. I’m chiming in my agreement.
If you were to cut, then bulk, eventually the bulk would bring you back to where you were when you first began to cut. So you’ll have to cut again. It is a complete waste of your time and you’ll achieve satisfaction by bulking now, as your goals will become more reasonable than they are now.
What is more, what you want now will never be achieved through your proposed method. Go straight for the bulk. Good luck.