Okay Wideguy sorry I called you a "meathead" in your last thread. Did you have to lay this guilt trip on me?
All kidding aside, here is a subject that I can appreciate. I have found that life is a circle, and you ultimately get back what you put into it! Sort of like one of your training sessions, but less direct, more esoteric.
You may not think that you are negative, but there might be some things that you are doing in one area of your life that are causing pain to others. You most likely do not even realize it. That pain is coming back to you in other ways! We all like to think that we are "good people". The question then becomes, what is good? Certain behaviors cannot be listed under the category of "good". Even though they may feel "good".
At one point in my life, many years ago. I was so caught up in pleasing myself on a daily basis. Everything was "me" first. I didn't realize true happiness was only found when we spent time pleasing others! In my case I met my wife and shortly after we were married an had children, before I brought true harmony and love into my life. It was in the serving of others, my wife and children, that I drew "positive energy" into my life.
I continue this sort of behavior by giving to charity and volunteering to help others who are less fortunate. Whenever we give, we receive. Ever teach someone how to do a certain exercise? In the process of showing that person, you actually see the exercise differently and understand it better yourself, which ends up helping you! The circle is more eveident with this example, but I think life is very much like this.
If you want peace and harmony in your life you must project peace and harmony from within. Then manifest this love to others on a regular basis. Do you do this? You are not the center of the universe! I used to think I was, and those were the most miserable times of my life.
It may seem difficult to understand at first. However, I believe the fighting all around you, and people,(even your dog) reacting negatively to you is actually your fault in some strange circular manner.
I would wager that you are doing something in your life currently that forbids this sort of harmony from coming into your life. what could that be?
Glad to hear that you are meditating, keep at it! The answer just may come to you during one of your meditaitons. However, After you are finished with one of your meditating sessions, put your shoes back on and go down to the local food pantry and help unload a truck or two!
All the best to you!