My background: I’m 24 years old. Started lifting when I was 16 but didn’t really start to get anywhere with it until I was 19/20. I was a former fat kid who was too afraid to get fat again and never ate enough to put on size. At 19/20 I really started to put on some muscle and strength, somewhat in spite of myself. I was playing college baseball and was fortunate enough to have an awesome trainer. I followed his programs and ate and saw huge progress. After my playing days were over I fell into some depression and stopped lifting for about two years, getting into running instead. Ended up very skinny. Fast forward to mid 2016 and I got back into it, discovered T-nation and I’ve been at it since. For the most part I’ve followed programming I’ve found here with some relatively short periods of free styling mixed in between programs
My issue: I hate my physique. I guess what I’ve done, even with baseball, as always fallen more into the power building side of things. I like strength training but I also want to look good. Problem is I think I’m more skinny-fat than anything, maybe even just kinda fat. I’m 6”2, maybe a little more, and currently 203 pounds at a body fat probably in the high teens.
My lifts are okay-ish. Bench 255, squat- 365, dead-405, OHP-145. I don’t deadlift often at all anymore, just time to time to see where I’m at.
I feel like every time i try to bulk (clean bulks always) I just end up getting kinda fat. At the same time I don’t feel like I have enough muscle to bother doing a cut.
Based on the background I’ve provided and my pictures, can anybody offer recommendations?
Should add that I’m currently running Waterbury’s Total Body Training (first week) after running The Waterbury Method for the last 3-4 months. With both programs I’ll usually throw in a couple more exercises (3-4 sets each) to add volume as I’m not sure there’s enough as written