Dude, couldn't be prouder of you for being sober. Period. Don't ever go back. Lifting every other day, much less every day, will help you keep your focus in taking each day as it comes. Today I lift. (just got done) I eat clean the rest of the day, tomorrow sore, and looking to the next day, which is lift day. Make it simple, just focus on every 36 hours, and what leads up to it. The eating clean, the pre workout shake, the post shake, the hour later protein meal, etc, etc, You can break this up so it will occupy your mind and you end up thinking about it every three hours.
No more sugar. Back down on carbs. Try to eat protein in every meal...do 6 meals a day. Make the mid AM, and mid afternoon meals a protein shake with milk. Wake up, oatmeal packet in milk, coffee. Mid AM, shake. Lunch, CLEAN lunch, protein with carbs from raw veggies maybe with a little light ranch, mid afternoon shake, early eve, clean meal, maybe protein shake before bed.
Get into a ritual, and it will end up taking up your whole life ! That is a good thing. Set goals out for 1 year, 2 years, etc.
I learned this the hard way...when you do Squats, you should be almost out of breath after each set, or you aren't doing em right. Take one Dumbell, and go ALL the way down to where your butt is 6-8 " off floor. Make it a 30 lb Dumbell. Do 12. Then tell me if you still have plenty of breath. OR, you may already be a TOTAL TANK, doing 185 all the way down to the ground. If so, congratulations, I am right behind you and coming fast.
I can flat bench the 105 lb Dumbells, did it this morning 2 x 8. But, I can only Squat all the way down holding a 60 lb Dumbell in each hand.
Same with Deads. I started doing them right, and can only do about 110.
All the best to you. You don't need luck, you just need hard work and that is
something you have plenty of.
Keep at it, I will see you in a couple years..
(PS Check your Bodyfat on one of those deals at the gym. Don't bulk until you can lower it. Mine is 15-18 %, but I am an Ecto. I would bet yours is 25-26 %. Get that down first...with the right food..)