I’ve been feeling a shift in my mood and mindset as of late. A couple of times per year I go into these places mentally where I just have endless energy and inspiration and a burning need to strive further and be better - those are the times I make really good progress. But those are also the Times I need to stay focused on my goal as I tend to have a lot of trouble keeping a single goal in mind when this happens. Now don’t get me wrong, I train hard and do things as well as I can year round. But for most part it’s just business as usual for me. To put it in perspective - for the most part I’m just going parachute jumping with safe conditions - a new parachute, a good pilot, everything is good. But during the months where I shift into that mood the plane is burning and I’m throwing the parachute out before jumping, catching it mid air. It’s just so much more fun and intense. (For the record, I have never gone parachute jumping)
So during these months/weeks I may do stuff I wouldn’t normally do. My work capacity and ability to recover goes to another level, and to be honest, it’s pretty good at all times. What suffers is my ability to focus and to think rationally. I may act impulsively, I may even get a bit aggressive at times. But I’ve gotten a lot better with managing all that, with channeling it and using it for something useful.
I don’t know what it is that causes it, it ain’t voluntary. But really, I don’t even care too much. It’s a part of my life and I’ll just roll with it.