I am here feeling desperate and very lost. First of all I know I am a dick and understand I had no business getting into the mess I am in. Anyhoo.
Currently I am 42 years old and usually in very good health. However back in 2017 I decided to run a course of Test Enathate @ 1ml a week. After growing massive and having adverse reactions to it I stopped. I am very sensitive to most supplements. After I stopped I realised I was hugely bloated and wanted to get the bloat down. So I procured myself some Arimidex from an Anabolic place in London. Thinking I knew what i was doing I took one tablet 1mg a day and it was getting my bloat down and also i noticed my dick was working right again. Then one day it all went to shit. My joints started hurting, i had hideous BO and my dick was useless. After reading up i realised i crashed my E2.
So, I left it how it was and hoped to recover naturally. It did not happen. I met my new girlfriend and sex was terrible, i felt so sorry for her. My erections were so weak and i just wastn myself. i wanted sex but it just was useless. Things got slightly better over time but it was very hit and miss. I knew I was goosed. Into 2018 and I was working hard but always tired. I could only hit the gym once every 3 days and that was the hardest thing in the world just getting there. Feeling weak in the gym too. So I concluded my Test must be low.
So i got a medicheck blood test and these were the results.
D.H.E.A. Sulphate 13.1 umol/L 0.44 - 13.4
FOLLICLE STIM. HORMONE 2.5 IU/L 1.5 - 12.4
LUTEINISING HORMONE 2.4 IU/L 1.7 - 8.6
TESTOSTERONE 8.5 nmol/L 7.6 - 31.4
Free-Testosterone(Calculated)*0.16 nmol/L 0.30 – 1.00
SEX HORMONE BINDING GLOB 29 nmol/L 16 - 55
17-Beta OESTRADIOL 71 pmol/L < 192
My free testosterone was in the gutter. Now I knew I was goosed. Not knowing what to do or thinking clearly (panicking I got in touch with Balance My Hormones .com. The subsequent blood test i took yielded the following results
Prostate Specific Ag(Total) 0.54 ug/l 0.00 - 2.00
THYROID STIMULATING HORMONE 2.15 mIU/L 0.27 - 4.2
FREE THYROXINE 15.9 pmol/l 12.0 - 22.0
FREE T3 4.8 pmol/L 3.1 - 6.8
TESTOSTERONE 10.1 nmol/L 7.6 - 31.4
Reference Ranges apply to adults
SEX HORMONE BINDING GLOB 30 nmol/L 16 - 55
PROLACTIN 139 mIU/L 86 - 324
17-Beta OESTRADIOL 50 pmol/L < 192
From these results I gained a prescription for TRT and started the course. I did it for 5 weeks ans again I didnt like it. The arimidex .5mg every 5 days had an effect on me down below and it made me feel neutered. I was also taking Hcg 500IU every 5 days. but again I had to stop. After a while the same symptoms appeared. erection issues, I cannot ejaculate for anyhting during intercourse, but can masturbating it is pure crap.
I decided to embark on some PCT to try and restart myself HPTA. So i took Clomid at 50mg a day and Nolva @ 10mg a day. It made a difference!! While I was no way near normal, my erections had got better and er thats about it. Still struggled to ejacualte. Now I finished this about 9 weeks ago and steadily It my libido and erections have dropped off. I then decided to try a Natural test booster. I took Testolyze and it helped somewhat. But I feel dead now in my private parts and my balls have a dull ache. My paranoia is taking over too and i think maybe my prostate is swollen. I stopped the testolyze yesterday as i felt it was making my balls hurts and my semen quanitiy has dropped off since taking it. Might not be linked but right now i just odnt know anything.
I am at my wits end. i am not the best writer so please excuse the drivel. But i am unsure what to so next. I am thinking endochrine dr. Or try one more round of pct: HCG 1000 iu EOD for 10 days then Nolva @ 20mg per day for 30 days? And see where i am at. Currenlty abroad until mid jan so cant do any bloods until then.
Can anyone please give me a steer. A good Dr or what I should try next. Its the not knowing that is killing me.
If you have come this far, thank you and all messages welcome.