I am flattered by the interest.
I’ll try to sum it up like this, without going on a ramble. I had major depression, on and off, for nearly all of my life. It started in my teens and got VERY bad in my mid 20s to about 31 years old. Right now, I can’t remember the last time I ever had a depressive or “mixed” episode. Let us just say when one is constantly hit by depression on and off–I mean serious depression!–accomplishing goals is next to impossible. If it were not for depression–although I really love my life the way it is now, the friendships I have, my wife, my in-laws, my passion, my degrees and job (although I have had it with the specific place I work in, the health benefits are excellent and some people there like me), etc.–I could have accomplished what I wanted to a long time ago, I THINK.
Depression also leads to gross procrastination. It’s like swimming upstream constantly. You can’t finish anything when you’re gripped by it. You can’t develop a business. You can’t find a woman. Can’t make new friendships. I can explain more, but it’s food shopping time.