I really dont know where else to write, I know at times over the years you guys have been pretty good in hard times. NEver mind my new account im an old member, but how do you say* dont always agree with things so some accounts have been retired.
My mother has been missing for a week, She went for a walk and never returned. Leading up to that day she had been poisoning herself with so much coffee and ciggs and lack of eating and drinking water seemed to almost make her kind of crazy. I dont want to get into the nitty gritty and all the details but she was spotted a couple of times kind of wandering in odd places. But those reports came days after I flyered the neighborhood. I have been spending the nights looking all over LA, and find myself tested with all my might.
I ahve never felt this feeling of unkown and wondering if she is alive, ok, escaping, or anything. I feel helpless and worried as well as extremely mad at this behavior. On top of that I have been dealing with a father who got addicted to meth and moved to mexico for the last few years.
I sit back and question WTF ??? Im not tough enough to say fuck it and not weak enough to cry in a ball all day long.
but im having a hard time just living everyday life, the little things are a chore and my own company is harder to stand for some reason.
In a way id rather hear the worse than just some ??? UNKOWN>
just had to thow this out there.
**FORMLY MISCONCEPTION, KILL EM ALL