I'm a 25 y/o male 6'ft tall 204lb. I started SL 5x5 8 weeks ago and love the strength gains I have been attaining. This is the first program I have done in about 7 years. Those 7 years were filled with binge drinking, drug use (adderall and cocaine), and a complete disregard for nutrition with periods some would call anorexia.
For the past year and some change I have not used drugs or alcohol and actually been eating. I have gotten downright fat. Probably due to a weak ass metabolism from not eating for long periods of time in the past.
A switch flipped in my head and I am having no trouble staying committed to my fitness thus far so I finally calculated my macros for bulking. (These are probably high but I work 12-14 hrs a day on my feet)
74G of Fat
I think I'm at a 25-26% bodyfat but its ALL in my gut and lower back (shitty for me, wah). I understand this means I probably have to lower my carbs. I also stopped eating refined sugar and no fruit juice.
I'm only trying to bulk because I'm worried my muscles aren't big enough not to look like shit if I cut.
Should I bulk or cut? Are my numbers ok? Any other advice or encouragement?
I'll include a picture. Please don't be mean, I'm really doing this.
Thank you in advance!