for part 1:
It took a while, but I’m making my way back. Not just here, but in life. I finally have an apartment and all that goes with it. It’s a good thing, too because couch jumping gets real old real fast. And I don’t think I could handle another night sleeping in my car.
Anyway, I can’t say I’m totally over my wife, but I feel OK, now. I guess I’ve come to accept that it is over. We still talk about once a week and they are generally decent conversations, although there never really seems to be a point to our coversations.
Sometimes we talk just to see what’s up with each other. Sometimes we talk and reminisce just to hear our voices choke and eyes water up. I still miss her. I think. Maybe I just miss what we had. Maybe I wonder if I will ever have that with another person. I don’t know what it is, but I miss something. But, at the same time, I feel better now than I have in months.
Thank god for the gym. I may sound like my proirities are screwed up, but working out is the most important thing in my life right now. I don’t think that’s bad either. I no longer have a wife or anyone to look after, it’s just me. I keep myself busy lifting and I keep myself happy.
I plan on going back to school in the January semester, but I don’t know if I will be able to afford it. For those that don’t know, California has some ridiculously low resident rates. I encourage those out there to take advantage of it. Unfortunately, in Wisconsin they are much higher.
With everything that took place this summer, I’m living on a very tight budget and may have to put the school thing off for a couple months.
I can’t say that I’m still friends with everybody that I was before I moved to California. I’ve gone out and hung out with a few of my old friends and it was awkward. However, I have a couple friends that have been helpful, and we still get along great.
I don’t think this post will be quite as long as the other one; there won’t be much changing in my life from day to day. At least not for a little while. For now I’m just taking my simple life and going day-today with it. Thanks to all that offered advice and well-wishing. It was appreciated.
Enjoying the beer and snow,
PS The Packers are 6-0 since I’ve come back to Wisconsin. Karma…?