It all started with a trip to Milwaukee when I was in 3rd grade- my family took me to a baseball game and I rode along with my cousins, Mark and Scott. Scott brought a boom box with him and he brought “Some Enchanted Evening” from B.O.C. I heard the song Godzilla and knew right away that THIS was what I wanted. LIke many people who are heavily involved with music or training or whatever - you just knew at a young age. By the time I was in 5-8th grade, I had a paper route and had Slayer’s Haunting the Chapel, Venom’s Welcome to Hell and At War with Satan and Celtic Frost’s Morbid Tales were in heavy rotation. Two of my best friends had older brothers who helped keep the flow of tapes filled with random goodies. And I lived within BMX riding distance to two of the best “underground” music stores - decorated with punk/crust/metal posters/shirts/flyers, etc. I spent hours in each one, with no money, just checking out each LP and wishing I had any money at all.
But it was Frost’s Procreation of the Wicked and Dethroned Emperor that showed me the way - thats what I wanted to hear. But understand it was all about speed in the 80/90’s. All I wanted was a band that played slow-as-fuck! On Dec. 23, 1993, I bought EHG’s Take as Needed for Pain and it changed my life like Morbid Tales did. How about that? I get the “bible” of sludge my first attempt!
Anyway, I spent any hour I wasn’t training or at school with music - trying to find/talking to people and doing what I can to spread the word. Now that I have a larger voice, I am trying to do what others’ did for me and show me truly good music and supporting the scene that has given so much of itself to me.
So you asking me how this music can bring me down - it is part of my life. It is the one of my obsessions. Everytime I hear Morrow scream “Obese male! Feeding begins!” (and sludge fanatics know exactly what I’m talking about), it brings a huge smile to my face. This isn’t just something I like to do in my spare time. When I go at something, I do it 10000%. So that is the story, leaving out huge things, of my music obsession. Since I’ve been a kid I wanted to run over people on the football field, lift heavy weights and play crushing, slo-mo riffs. Maybe I should have pursued another profession or music to love - but it would have been fake.
Thank you for asking this question and not asking a question that is answered in the book 15 times. I appreciate the respect.