I've read numerous forums where people seem to get muscle dysmorphia and deication confused with each other. dedication is one thing and dedication is needed to get anywhere in this sport but muscle dysmorphia is something different.
dedication is planing your day, keeping alchol consumption low to zero, not missing a training session, wanting to get bigger which motivates you and keeps you going. then there's muscle dysmorphia, or bigorexia.
bigorexia si more than just checking yourself in the mirror frequently.
I get pissed off when I see posts like "Im glad I have bigorexia, it pushes me harder to get bigger" erm, if you truely had bigorexia then you wouldnt be glad you had it.
below is what it's like to suffer from bigorexia:
I suffer from 'bigorexia' and although it isn't as dangerous as anorexia, it's still a disorder that can and does cause alot of suffering.
since the age of 14 I've carried this disorder (Im 28 now) I haven't been out in public in a T-shirt for the length of time I've been this way. It's prevented me from doing alot of things (going abroad with friends, caused problems in relationships, had to quit playing tennis because I had to wear shorts, there's also things that I want to do but cant because this is holding me back - martial arts, play soccer for an 11-a-side team, trek peru to raise money and even just feel comfortable about my appearance)
summer time is the time of year I HATE, when it's warm I get really depressed, it causes me to think about the situation even more than usual and it's the time of year that I find very uncomfortable to live in - I wear a T-shirt and long sleeved shirt even on the hottest of days. I had to quit college a number of times - too self conscious and too uncomofortable in the summer wearing all those layers of clothing. Even at home I don't like wearing T-shirts because I find my skinny arms repulsive and don't like to look at them, I'm even starting to avoid looking in the mirror when I have no clothes on, suicide has also been in my thoughts.
I realise that bodybuilding is a 24/7 thing but I think I (and anyone else who suffers from this) takes it to another level. right from the first minute I wake up I'm thinking about the day ahead, thinking about my workout, thinking about my appearnce and how I look. I tend to avoid social events now down to the fact that I dont/can't miss a meal or training. even when doing other things like watching TV or a film or talking to someone, I find myself drifting off thinking about other ways I can gain weight and make myself better, thinking about new supplements or routines that might help.
I have started using gear and to be honest I'm now bordering on AAS abuse and I know that is bad and I need to do something about it.
Thing is, to go along with all what's been said above, I have the shittest genetics known to man. my gains both in size and strength are pathetic, even with the use of gear - this problem only makes things worse with the 'bigorexia'
you now might think - 'well he has a distorted perception of himself because he's a bigorexic' BUT measurements and stats on paper don't lie.
regarding my genetics and inability to gain decent size - it isn't down to training or diet, I feel I'm quite knowledgable on both. I'm suppost to be having some tests done in 2 months time to see if there's a medical reason behind all this but I'm yet to come off the gear so any tests will give a false reading.
regarding the disorder, I have been treated for it but even so, I still feel the only way I will improve is by gaining muscle.
Hope that has shed some light on bigorexia or muscle dysmorphia or what ever else it's called lol