Thanks for the honest reply.
I am extremely depressed atm, I lost my job 2 months ago due to my anger and I'm going through a divorce. I know I'm young to be married but it happened and didn't work out.
What also gets me is when I started training , I only trained for 5 months and I was out lifting most people on deadlifts and was putting on some decent size. Hair was thick, had what I felt amazing levels of test back then when I was 19 .
Fast forward to now I just turned 23 and I look like shit. My diet is terrible and I'm so weak it's unreal.
I'll see what I can do naturally till I'm 25 and hopefully stick to a good diet for 2 years and then when I'm ready I'll pin to win.
Also recently I've noticed I'm getting bad heart problems. When I go to sleep on me right hand side it feels as if I'm putting all my weight on heart.
ffs I'm just depressed at everything in life atm but I know if I pin now my heart may not be able to take it as I'm in terrible condition.
I know this is a long time away but what should I take once I'm ready? I read the steroids for idiots so I have some understanding but I don't want to gain bitch tits and only want to be like 175 or 180 for my height and frame.
Any more than that then I'll look like a roidcel xD
I heard to go for non aromatising roids and only do injectables as orals are harsh on liver?
Thanks for the help everyone and I'm 100% srs.
My life is terrible atm I feel as if most women have more test than me I feel like a bitch and what's worse is I know the feeling of being in good shape and strong and to come from that to where I am now is suicide worthy but I'll carry on hopefully.