I’m primary hypogonadal - I tested 50mg Clomiphene for a week six months ago - at the end, suicidal depression of a kind never before encountered and no change to any symptoms.
Once again my stats:
Height: 6’ 2"
Total T: 11.8 nmol/L /0.0347 = 340ng/dl [Tested 2013/07/16]
TSH: 2 [Thyroid is normal]
Drugs: No Alcohol, No Caffeine, Sunifiram 25mgx6/day, Oxiracetam 500mgx6/day
Protein: 213g Wild Pacific Canned Salmon/day [16g fishoil/day, potentiates Testosterone]
Exercise: No Car, long hilly bicycle journeys every few days
Thyroid testing is important because the symptoms of hypothyroid partially overlap the symptoms of hypogonadism. These are: general weakness, easily tired, low core temperature, low extremities temperature, dry skin. My thyroid’s been tested about a half-dozen times since age 10 and all tests were normal. They kept testing because my symptoms matched hypothyroid and the underinformed physicians apparently had no clue about hypogonadism.
If you suspect your case similar to mine you must get both Testosterone and Thyroid function tested.
After only eight days in transit by Express Mail, on 2013/08/07 I received 10g of pure Dianabol [Methandrostenolone] powder with 99% purity directly from the Chinese manufacturer. The cost was $121.12 including EMS fee. At 10mg ED the cost is very affordable: this 1000-day supply will last 2.7 years. Costs at 10mg ED are $0.12/day or $3.63/month. Do note however that as I will explain below this dosing is higher than needed - likely double. 10mg EOD will cut these costs in half.
I decided the pure powder route due to cost efficiency and also already owning an excellent 1mg digiscale - the HORIZON Pro-20B. Because I already have to measure out two milligram-level molecules each morning I decided the extra work to measure one more wouldn’t be a problem.
On that fateful Thursday as I rode to the post office to collect the parcel I thought about how very soon cycling would become a pleasure again rather than constant pain that never results in gains - even endurance.
The parcel was well packed and it took some time to find the product. The weight and solubility matched Dianabol’s properties - insoluble in water.
Carefully measured out 10mg, noted the time and ate it. Not particularly much flavor - certainly not the strong bitter of junk methyltestosterone.
Racetams usually take 40 minutes but I was rather shocked because at the 35-minute mark something rather dramatic began to occur.
My entire life has been a kind lived in deficiency. No matter the amount or quality of food consumption, vitamins, minerals, etc. deficient symptoms plagued me. Deficient: poor food absorption, inability to maintain weight, can’t hold muscle even with daily exercise, constant chronic fatigue and bones sticking out everywhere - ribs, knees. Can’t sleep without a cushion between my knees due to protruding kneebones covered with insufficient flesh.
Metabolic deficiency has also kept me long company: cold extremeties, tiredness, slow metabolism are all daily features of life. I mean corpse-cold hands and feet all the time.
Back to the time. I’m at some random place - in the washroom - and suddenly I realize something. My hands aren’t just warm - they’re slightly sweaty. My feet are warm. And inside my core is something rather new - a furnace is burning warmly where before it was just chill.
The excess of heat was so great that over the next hour that sweat made a mess of my mouse
Over the next few hours more effects became apparent: minor pains from exertions disappeared. The most stunning thing was the mental effects. Almost more powerful than the physical. I just can’t describe it but if I could use lying words I would say that a feeling of what should be normal overcame me in a gradual fashion. This feeling of peace, correctness, happiness and confidence was completely unexpected. Even if the World would end tomorrow and I knew it today nothing could make me unhappy.
The effects persisted very long - longer than the anticipated four hours and into the night making sleep a little difficult.
Now for the sides:
The sweating was annoying. Fix: lower dose / EOD dosing.
Hair is slightly greasier. Showers every 5 instead of 7 days.
The level of tension that 10mg created was fine for everyday activities but the superfine highspeed motor coordination needed to fling the show on the PC wasn’t there. A bit of tremble consistently manifests too, but it’s the coordination that counts. I’ve had similars on nootropics and adaptation / dosemod always fix it. Fix: 10mg EOD instead of ED.
This is the only really bad side and one that - luckily - has already faded by 80% since last week. A couple days after starting I found myself opening my usual tasty Salmon can for dinner. Something went wrong when I put the first spoonful in my mouth though. The taste was wrong and I had to work hard to eat it. It was like chewing paper fibres that had been poorly flavored. Note that I only encoutered this kind of effect on a few foods and also note that appetite was and is minimally if at all affected. Last night - the last night of dosing as I’m on break today - the same salmon tasted fine and it was easy to eat it.
In an isolated occurrence, yesterday morning I dealt with extreme nausea about an hour after waking. It was bad enough that I had to run to the washroom and stand over the sink three times but luckily did not lose breakfast. It has not recurred. I don’t know if it was due to the Dianabol because it only happened once and all of Dianabol’s other sides manifested consistently.
These are all short-term sides. The long-term picture is very different. There we are dealing with a negative-feedback loop within the body causing a decrease in endogenous Testosterone production. My own production is already so low at 341nm/dl - and naturally declining at such a high rate - that it’s not exactly a shining star but nevertheless I have spent an enormous amount of time reasearching how to prevent the downregulation of production.
Testosterone is naturally released in the morning (4a - 8a typical) in a spike. It is theorized on various forums that a short-acting androgen taken in a tiny dose at that time will co-incide with the Testosterone spike and therefore the negative-feedback loop won’t see it as much or will be programmed to ignore it. I think that theory has a good chance of being true. If the negative feedback loop had the same sensitivity at all times of the day as the morning then the morning spike would naturally result in some awful downregulation. Dianabol is a short-acting androgen - according to some sources anyway.
So I decided to use the Dianabol 10mg + Morning Dosing method. Seems to be working so far.
Every day and at the end of the week today I checked both balls and breast area. Remember, a deficiency of Testosterone implies an Estrogen deficiency too since a man makes it from Testosterone. With every joint in my body crackling but no classic arthritis symptoms or family history I guessed that the joint issue is the same as those on bodybuilding forums who report the same symptoms after taking non-aromatizing androgens. Oddly, after a week of Dianabol the cracking has only declined slightly but the pains are 90% gone.
I specifically chose Dianabol because it aromatizes moderately. Ironically, the unnatural form of Estradiol produced by the aromatization of Dianabol is a far more potent estrogen then natural Estradiol. So while less is produced due to its lower rate of aromatization, what is produced has a far stronger estrogenic effect.
Naturally one must be concerned about feminizing effects. However, cases like mine are unique: with a severe combined Testosterone and Estrogen deficiency and using a low dose of Dianabol (10mg ED switching to 10mg EOD), the result is a repletion of both hormones’ receptor activities which is precisely what is needed. The ratios may need tweaking and it can be done using various methods.
This is very different from what someone who bodybuilds is going for and where they’re starting from. They’re starting from relatively normal levels and aiming for supranormalcy. That means having to deal with higher doses, higher costs, side effects and stacking anti-estrogens, aromatase inhibitors, SERMs, SARMs, etc.
Frankly, it’s a totally different picture from the deficient individual aiming for normalcy. It is possible for deficient individuals to get to normalcy using the synthetic androgen Dianabol [Methandrostenolone] with minimal to no side effects - remember I have an unusually sensitive and weak body - and very low financial costs. The legal risks with high-density pure powder are also minimal since hiding is easy.
The liver is the other health matter of import. Yet after thousands of hours research I cannot find any kind of hepatic symtoms reported on any forum or study from only Dianabol 10mg ED - never mind my planned 10mg EOD or even every third day. I don’t take any alcohol - quite unusual - aspirin, tylenol, caffeine or any other liver-stressing drugs and I also don’t take any ‘liver support’ supplements. I’m not on any prescription drugs or liver-stressing herbs either. With this dosing pattern I just can’t see hepatic issues in my future and none exist in my family. I could get enzymes tested at the local hospital but am lazy.
My kind of looseness would be a problem on a bodybuilder’s regimen but with the tiny amount and other factors I’m confident that safety is relatively assured but will of course monitor regulary for symptoms.
Today I am off Dianabol and am amazed that the effects continue at about 80%!
Except now the heat is moderated. It is a low fire that keeps me moving efficiently and quickly. Coordination and speed on the PC are back up to 90%.
The sweating is down to decent levels too. It’s closing in on perfection.
The next step down the dose trituration curve is 10mg EOD - every other day - half the previous dosing. That new dosing will begin tomorrow.
Today is the first alternating day-off of the new dosing schedule.
My only question for others is which dosing pattern would provide most effects and be least suppressive: 10mg EOD or 5mg ED?