I don't know about this feelings stuff and I don't really like to talk about my or other people's feelings, but what I can say is that you shoot your hips back as soon as you ascend out of the hole and your knees are going back too soon too and about mid-way up you recover your position.
What's helped me with this issue is to stop doing that.
Okay... maybe that's not all that helpful... I do that by imagining myself as having rigid shins and knees in the hole and really pushing my hips forward in the hole by squeezing my glutes ultra hard like I'm trying to crack a walnut. I bet if you try that, everything else will come together.
It's not very dramatic so I bet just being aware of the issue and using cues like the ones above will fix that. But if it doesn't, you could try working in front squats afterwards to help ingrain good habits since if you try the same thing with a front squat you'll either have sore wrist or dump it if it's heavy.