So a discussion I had a couple of weeks ago with some users on the flame free confession thread has led me to do some introspection and think about my life and the gym.
I’ve come to the realization that training and nutrition occupy most of my thoughts and mental resources. When I have spare time, I tend to spend it reading or watching videos about the gym, and when I’m not doing anything that requires much focus my mind tends to wander and I end up thinking about the gym.
On training days, for the first part of the day (I train in the evening) I actually think a lot about the workout I’m going to do (often fearing it to some degree), then the time comes that I train; after that I go home and cook dinner and shortly after I go to bed and the cycle starts again tomorrow. If I have a bad workout, like I did yesterday, I end up thinking about what I did wrong during this time and I get a bit of anxiety.
My main thoughts are
- I’m weak
- I’m small
- I’m not as lean as I would like to be
- I’m hungry (despite eating 3.2k cal a day)
- Have I wasted my training time so far since I’m still weak?
- Should I do 5/3/1 for a year and see what happens?
- I probably can’t even bench properly since it always feels weird, how on earth am I going to get stronger?
- Other ones related basically on the fact that I am not where I would like to be strength- and size-wise
On top of that, I also read about training and nutrition for leisure even if I’m not necessarily applying what I read to myself. I think I just enjoy the topic.
I mean, I also do other stuff during the day, but nothing catches my interest quite as much as training and nutrition, what’s more I am an anxious person by nature so I think overall that isn’t healthy for me.
I think I should change that but I’m not quite sure where to start. Should I look into different hobbies? If so, do you have any ideas?
Any kind of thoughts are much welcomed.