As immature and naive as it sounds to most seasoned bodybuilders, I was always horrified of testosterone. When we look at different drug profiles, we see it has the most side effects. The most I was afraid of were bloating, gyno, and acne. I used equipoise once before and got a back full of acne and couldn't take my shirt off without being embarrassed. I figured equipoise was very mild and aromatized at half the rate of testosterone, so I'd be safe using a moderate dosage. I was pretty much wrong.
Now two and a half years later I decided to quit the bullshit and use testosterone. I got some Taiwanese cypionate and decided to start at a low dose of 300mg/week. I figured this would keep side effects relatively low, let me know my tolerance for testosterone, and put some weight on me.
Lesson 1: If you have never used testosterone before, you simply DO NOT know your tolerance for it yet.
As you may have read a few weeks ago, I turned into a salivating vagina when my hormone levels got out of whack. I was on adex at .25mg EOD. This was NOT ENOUGH for me. I started getting very moody and depressed and my mind was completely cloudy. My face also turned into a balloon. At this point, after some good advice, I upped the adex to .25 ED. I started to feel BETTER. I did not feel 100%.
After that, I bumped the adex to .5ED and I felt completely normal and happy. Just because others have no problems with a high dose of test with no adex, it does not mean you are in the same boat. You have to "find your sweet spot" as someone here said. That's right, I require .5mgED for just 300mg/week. I didn't think of that when I started the cycle, thankfully I had a boatload of adex on hand.
Lesson 2: Low doses can prove results (this is also likely because this was the first time I used testosterone.)
After 10 weeks I gained 9kg or about 19 pounds. I am holding almost no water (thanks to the adex). I can honestly say my diet was on point almost the entire time. I was pushing at least 350g of protein a day and all my carbs were from sweet potatoes, brown rice, and slow cook oatmeal. Occasionally I would substitute white rice, but mostly only after workouts.
I didn't eat that much beef because I digest it very slowly. The majority of my protein came from powder, egg whites, and chicken breasts.
Lesson 3: Side effects
As freaked out as I was, I only had one side effect-the moodiness and tender nips when my estrogen was too high. Once I upped the adex I had no problems anymore. It took less than 48 hours for me to feel the difference. Some people say it takes up to 10 days for hormone levels to plane out, but I felt it much quicker than that.
Finally, I had absolutely no acne on this dosage. I actually broke out on equipoise, had gyno symptoms on equipoise, held a lot of water on equipoise, bloated on equipoise... but had none of this when I coupled adex with testosterone.
Lesson 4: Don't doubt yourself
Get ready for whatever gets thrown your way. Keep in mind that you really have no idea how your body is going to react to what you're about to do if this is your first cycle. Have your protocol strictly laid out, and listen to the advice of those who know more than you. That's it.
Thanks for everybody's help in a productive first test cycle with many more to come.