without ever having gotten fully to contest condition, if I had to guess based on my photos and seeing prep threads on here I was still probably anywhere from 6-10 pounds away from thinking I had even a shot to be contest level lean. I could be very off on that but that’s my best guess from an untrained eye lol.
I’ve since came off the diet and my weight bounced up very quickly a few pounds, and I feel great mentally and physically and have even toyed around with starting back on the diet again but I still remember the daily struggle it got to be so that’s probably a no!
I have an interest in competing at some point, but I’m well aware I’m not developed enough to compete so it’s a couple years down the road. I can see how mentally chhallenging a real prep would be, and how it effects those around you. My girlfriend was sick of my diet by the end, and actually a couple days after the diet ended she was upset that I was still counting calories and restricting my food intake since I didn’t want to jump up 800-1000 calories overnight. I think I miscommunicated how the post diet weeks/months would look so she was definitely expecting a different experience and made sure I was aware lol. Poor job communicating on my part but did shed some light into just how much my diet restrictions and mood wore on her.
I hear ya on the avoiding conversations and interactions. There were days I felt fine and then a small thing would happen and I would be irritated out of nowhere. And many days I just started off knowing I felt run down and irritable and I was plenty happy to find excuses to sit lost in my own head rather than try and seek out or participate in conversations.
I’ve always been interested in bodybuilding and the like, didn’t follow the sport but was absolutely sure as a little kid I wanted to be big and strong like the running backs I idolized growing up. Thats shifted some to looking at and wanting to be big like a bodybuilder these days but I think I would have become obsessed with bodybuilding as a kid if I would have had any exposure at all to it when I was younger. I don’t think I saw one even online until I was a teenager. I can imagine the awestruck when seeing some of those guys up close for the first time, I would be interested in going to a big show and seeing the sheer size plans shape of some of these guys. Girlfriend thinks I’m crazy but idk it’s just cool.
I don’t ever think I saw the you and Shawn ray thing, but I would be interested!