So I'm never hungry anymore.
I've realized that I'm actually scared of being hungry and be stuck somewhere where I won't have anything to eat. As if I'd grown up in Somalia or something. It's strange. So it's really important to me to try to eat every three hours or whatever because I don't want to undereat and slow my metabolism. I'm never hungry in the morning, but I know how good breakfast is for you so I always have something.
5'4.25", ~120lbs, ~20% BF, BMR: ~1400, female - looking to lose fat/bulk up some, not currently actively pursuing it.
The thing is, I'm don't really need to eat anything at all. I'm just not hungry. Yesterday (don't slam me, it's exam period) I had peanut butter on bread for breakfast. A few hours later, the fear hit that I hadn't eaten enough yet, and I had a meal bar (which I always have on me). Then dinner:
So what ends up happening is that I'm eating just to eat. Pretty much every night I'm not hungry for dinner, but when I'm around my boyfriend at the end of a long day I want to sit back, have a meal, and relax - even if I'm not hungry. He suggests pizza, I think "I have to eat, I've only had 400 cals today." After that, I can finish half a bag of oreos in a sitting, although I rarely make it over 2,000 even when I do so. I seriously just like the act of eating, eat because I think I should, and am not hungry.
Obviously I need to start eating clean. Obviously I should eat smaller meals at night and bigger during the day - all which will be easier in approximately 3 days when I finish college - but seriously, how can I eat sometimes 1200 calories and still not be hungry?