I never thought you were a troll ever since your first thread on this topic. I am not sure if you remember me from the other thread, but I did post at length in there specifically because the issues being discussed hit home with me.
Before I go ahead, I ask only out of curiosity. Do you you lift or engage in any other physical activities? I only ask because I think it's peculiar that you post on this forum because there are forums out there specifically for people with depression and other mental health problems and relationship-related issues. It's fine that you post here. I am just curious about he matter.
Anyway, although I respect the men in here who brought up the matter of self pity and bring up an example of a mutilated man with a pleasant demeanor, I don't think the example is fitting in this situation. Again, I respect those who have brought this example up; I just don't think it relates to depression and anger resulting from lack of female companionship. I consider being mutilated and lack of a woman to both be miserable experiences. The mutilation does severely negatively alter one's health and appearance and might even result in constant or near-constant pain, what I think people would consider more serious matters than lack of a woman.
However, as I've said several times in this board, and in the other thread, I don't think there is much out there that can make a man angrier than lack of a woman--for real! It's a maddening experience and I think your behavior on here is consistent with the experience considering the constant pondering, introspection, wandering, lack of hope, and self-deprecation. That's what womanless men are prone to. Their minds race with an endless stream of thoughts about how they will find a woman and why they don't have one.
So no, you're not nuts generally. But you are indeed going nuts from this problem of yours, which I empathize with. As I said before, the angriest periods of my life were womanless ones.
You might benefit from getting psychotherapy until you get this area of your life under control; that is, find a woman!
I think you're an ordinary looking person with ordinary characteristics. So, with that in mind, of course you are not going to have to fight gorgeous women off with sticks, despite some trendy notion that even ordinary men can "date up" so long as they have enough game. Some disagree with me, but I say most men would make their lives easier by going out with women who match them. That is, if a man is a so-called five (as corny as rating people is), he can save himself trouble and embarrassment and disappointment by going for another five. Beautiful women know the game, and of course they see an ordinary man in front of them when they see one! Of course there are exceptions but that's how it is for most people. Same goes for socioeconomic status. It's highly unlikely that a pipe fitter is going to wind up with a woman from a powerful family of lawyers, doctors, and financiers.
But you are far from disqualified in finding a mate considering that these days I see on a regular basis very homely and/or obese or fat people dating, marrying, and reproducing. And they certainly don't have game! I've been married for two years and have a kid on the way this coming summer and I do not have "game "and I'm also not slick, not unusually talented, and not loaded, nor do I come from a powerful family. You know, I'm probably like most on this board and in the real world who have women. Get this through your head! I don't think you will though!
I'd like to write more but I have to go now.