I don't know if anyone remembers me but I was the infamous one who posted a whiny topic quite awhile ago in which I bitched about being a virgin, having low T, looking young among other things.
Well, I am writing today to inform that much of this is now irrelevant and to give some sense of closure to the saga. Ain't it strange how things change?
I recently returned from a 3 week trip to Europe in which I lost my virginity to a girl I have been online dating and am now intending on moving back to live with. Our activities would indicate I have nothing resembling low testosterone whatsoever and that my insecurities about being a somewhat slightly man are purely irrelevant once a certain level of confidence, assertiveness and charisma is gained. I'm surprised it went as well as it did to be honest.
I was raised a Catholic and had a lot of misgivings about it, mostly due to the fact that I was told to wait until marriage. Firstly i do not necessarily believe in the marriage contract as being that meaningful with the exception of tax breaks and other legal ramifications, many horrible marriages being evidence of this. So I decided to accept moderation and instead of ruling out sex as bad or vile outside of the world of "I do", experience it with someone whom I was pretty sure I would have a connection with and remain with. I lucked out, and this is to be the case. So it's crossed off now as territory on the other side of the fence that was previously uncharted.
I had a lot of experiences leading up to it, mostly loneliness and the soul crushing grind of minimum waging living (although thanks to 2 jobs and good money management, I have saved a decent amount), and ultimately I decided that I had made sufficient personal progress to make an investment. I'm glad I at least waited well past the high school range, and even college.
The truth is that real-world experience trumps speculation, whether on the internet or sitting on the couch in a pontificating cannabis-induced stupor. I am pleased to say that I am gaining more of this with time.