I'm sure you feel great on a gram of test, I feel much better on that as well, hahaha. I didn't remember everything that was said in your first thread, so apologies on that. Didn't know if you'd started taking an AI or not.
If bloodwork is showing that nolva is keeping your E2 around 22 (basically 20-25), then it sounds like it should be fine.
I'd have to see the studies you're referring to. As far as I'm aware, if you're blasting and cruising, as you have been, your 'baseline' should be irrelevant. I could be missing something here though.
I don't think I'm judging you in a way that runs counter to what you've asked for. You started a thread asking for advice, and that's largely what you've gotten. It's a free forum, and the contributors are pretty much just a bunch of other dudes trying to find their own way as well.
As far as 'feeling young again'... I don't know about you, but being on a gram of test does NOT make me feel young again. It feels fucking great mostly, but it's not remotely how I felt when I was young. Not at all. If I wanted to feel young again, I'd probably stop working out so hard, get my joints healed up, and lose about 20 lbs (or more) of muscle. That'd get me closer to my youth then running superhuman levels of testosterone.
When I was in my early 20's I was a 130 lbs drug addict/alcoholic. I can assure you I know what depression feels like. I can relate to most of what you're saying. But I try not to lie to myself about these things. I sincerely hope you keep moving in the right direction, it seems like you are.