As usual, I am writing on the damn go, which is becoming highly frustrating.
Anyway, for me, that one experience competing (and winning, which I did not expect in the slightest!), left me a changed man. Now, some outsiders would ask, "A changed man... from a bodybuilding show? Are you for real?"
The first time I saw pictures of bodybuilders in a book at my uncle's house I was completely flabbergasted! I asked my uncle, "How do they look like this? What do they do? I don't understand." He explained it to me. He simply said they lift weights and follow eat a certain way. I joined a gym at 16 but after that it was years of on and off training, sometimes full blown, sometimes casual, sometimes huge layoffs of a month or two away from training.
I can write and write and write on this. But when the thought of having kids dawned upon me a few years ago, some time after meeting my wife, the passion for BB returned like never before and at 30-something years of age, the shelf life of this passion became quite apparent. I guess there were times in my life in which I did look like a bodybuilder (uhh, when I did splits, as I do now, lmao!), but I never REALLY looked like one, nor could someone consider me a bodybuilder having not competed. As silly as it sounds, the Friday before my show, after going through three carbup meals and a supercompensation/pump workout at the gym, when I went into the aerobics room, looked in the mirror and took off my shirt, I could not believe what I had done with my body! I finally looked like a competitive bodybuilder! I was a bit tired before the workout, and after taking a few photos with my gym buddy, left the gym with a passionate feeling I never felt before aside from my wedding day! I actually almost shed a tear and I had not even done the show yet! Oh yes, this sounds silly to many people: a regular, sane dude, with a wife, an education, a profession, and all that American jazz... is shedding a tear from gaining muscle and going to a gym? Yup! It's unexplainable.
I left the gym knowing that placing, winning, losing in the show or not, I finally was a bodybuilder, something on hold for 25 years! Now, I can finally compete as a pro, and I will gladly lose (yeah, I mean that), win, or place next to other quality pros so long as I come in to the best of my abilities, with the same condition I had Saturday. In my own way, it is the same as a guy, who spent seven years in minor league ball, who finally goes to the major leagues just to get to bat as a pro, even just once, something that was special to him, and done at a level that most cannot.
To be continued in my thread...