this is a bit of a long story but I’ll try to optimize it as much as possible. I’m 38 years old about to turn 39 a month. At was 34 I was diagnosed with low T. Numbers were like totally of 119 I believe. Very symptomatic, depression, anxiety, anger, anemia.
I was diagnosed with a super rare genetic abnormality called a “Y chromosome micro deletion” which basically means that I can’t father children and I’ve never been able to since I was born.
I’m on Clomid. I’ve been on Clomid since 2014. I’m absolutely paranoid terrified scared to death of TRT. I mean as it stands Clomid does a few positives for me. My libido isn’t too bad. 60-70% kinda level and much better than before. I mean when I’m with my current wife I have no problems in that department. BUT during regular rudimentary aspects of the day sex doesn’t really come to mind all that often when a beautiful woman passes by in public. In my 20s it used to be constant to the point that I thought I was going to cheat on my first wife.
Clomid fixed my self of well-being to a degree. I’m no longer overly stressed out about certain things but it does hit me like it used to before Clomid.
I’m no longer severely depressed though occasionally I feel it.
Despair is basically gone.
When I first started Clomid after 2 to 3 weeks I felt 1 billion times better than I do now. That seemed to only last for maybe a week or two.
Some of the negatives that I feel on Clomid is I’m still really tired most of the day besides the early morning. It kinda just hits me after 1pm. Zero energy to work out more than a week before feeling so overly sore that I can’t recover fast enough. In the early days of Clomid i was able to work out just fine but for some reason lately it’s been terrible. I’ve even gain 30 pounds since my daughter was born or year ago.
That’s part of the reason I guess why I’m so conflicted on starting testosterone replacement therapy. if it makes me feel like that “clomid high” all the time then hell yeah.
I really don’t want it to fuck with my erection quality. I’ve been hearing that TRT thickens the blood restricting bloodflow to a degree and as we all know blood flow is probably the most important aspect of strong directions. One of my hesitations is if I go on TRT it’s going to kill my erection quality either completely or slightly.
(Occasionally all use Levitra for that added boost but I’ve been using that lesson last lately)
I really don’t want to have a heart attack on this stuff.
Prostate later in life. I’ve noticed that Clomid keeps the PSA fairly low if not super low. I sometimes wonder if clown made over a longer period of time my mask a potential cancer that would otherwise be discovered earlier by TRT because tear tea feels in the androgens of the prostate to the point that extra growth beyond that point is more noticeable.
Basically I’m worried about their lifelong aspects of this drug. Honestly I don’t have a whole lot of options other than cessation of treatment, Clomid, or tea or tea. And I’m sure any treatment for the prostate decades down the road or mean association of any medication I’m never on anyways. I guess to that it really doesn’t matter but I do want to feel my best for the longest time that I have in life and I don’t want to gain that positive by losing another positive is that I have now.
Any advice anyone might have who has gone through the same sort of ordeal would be nice.