I made a new account for this simply out of the embarrassment.
I've known my lifting partner for a little under a year, but we never really got to know eachother until I saw her in the gym for the first time this semester and I noticed she was doing squats and deadlifts. I was, of course, very interested as I had no idea she lifted weights. Her form was better than most of the guys there - not perfect and it was clear she hadn't been doing it for long but I admired her for simply being there and doing it with good form.
Eventually I got around to talking to her about it and she confirmed that she hadn't been lifting for long but that she really loved it. She asked me for advice on her form and if I'd help her with her squat and we've been lifting together since. (We're planning on doing a meet together in April)
Small talk between sets and the occasional post-lift lunch for a few months have allowed me to get to know her only a bit more than I did before but I find myself wanting to know absolutely everything. I won't waste your time singing her praises and explaining why I feel the way I do.
I make this thread only for one reason though: I feel like it's starting to affect the way that I lift. Everytime I do a set it's like I feel her eyes on me even when there is music blasting in my ears and it really interrupts my focus. Her lifts have gotten phenomenally better over the past few months (she's always been an athlete) and it kills me watching her sometimes.
The obvious thing to do would be to get another lifting partner but I don't want to just ditch her - she would say she's fine with it but I know she'd be upset. How can I get over my feelings for her, or at least ignore them so I can focus? Sadly enough, this is a bigger source of stress for me than anything else in my life.