Man this place looks different. it’s gonna take some getting used to, but it looks pretty sweet. For those of you who remember me, i have been gone for about 6 months. for those of you who dont know me, hello.
i ran into some tuff times and i wanted to share how lifting has saved my soul. The 8th of Feb. my whole world collapsed, i lost my mom to melanoma. as if that was not enough pain, the memorial tattoo i got for her the next day on my forearm got infected because i trained when it was still fresh. that alone kept me out for a month while it healed.
while it healed i had plenty of time to think and i became depressed.to the point that any intense focus brought memories of my mom to my mind and i would break down.
i always wanted to show her how strong i was, she was my motivation to lift, and improve. she was a very strong woman and i used that strength to drive the need to make her proud. whenever i would get ready for a heavy lift the same memories i used to train would break me down, even the damn songs on the radio all reminded me of her.
so i took some time of from lifting, and i found myself starting to care less about how i looked and felt. i didnt train, i ate like shit, i let my beard grow out, the whole shitty works. i became angry all the time. my pain would manifest itself through rage and i would explode over the smallest things.
I dont mean to sound all dramatic, and i assure you there is a point to this story.
i have recently started back into training. i joined a dungeon of a gym where i can be alone(maybe 10 people in there at one time).i have regained control of my diet, and even picked up that mach three again. i feel great again, like my old self. just hitting the weights has brought the joy back to my life that i have been lacking.
the people around me have even noticed the change. i love lifting weights and i will NEVER stop again. it’s hard for me to put into words the feeling i get while lifting. then again i dont have to here, you know what i’m talking about. it has been a while, and i look forward to speaking with those of you who knew me and those of you i have yet to meet.
IT’S GOOD TO BE BACK!!!