Seriously, what the hell.
Some random thoughts by me.
I'm watching the History Channel right now. Just started. I really hope it's not all infomercials. That would make me really sad.
I started training martial arts full time two weeks ago. I do BJJ 16 hours a week, 5 hours of Muay Thai, 5 hours of weight lifting, 2 hours of foam rolling and stretching, and 2 sessions of speed/mobility drills a week.
I started training like this the last week of the Velocity Diet, which was incredibly successful for me. I've never been in shape, never played high school or college sports, or really anything. I was incredibly overweight in high school (6'3, 225 lbs. Two months ago I was at 195 and 19% body fat.) I want to be a professional MMA fighter within the next two years.
I just quit my job to pursue this training regimen. I worked for a company that sells kitchen knives directly to customers in their homes. I've been doing it for three years, and I know I can comfortably make 30k a year doing this job without a college degree.
But I love martial arts. And I love lifting heavy stuff. So here I am.
Since I started training I've developed a problem sleeping. Two reasons. One, I'm so sore half the time that I can't settle down in any sort of comfortable position. Two, I'm just so excited to get up the next day and lift and work on my martial arts skills, that I can't sleep. I love seeing my body change. I love seeing the change in what I do on the mat, and I love slowly beating people in jiu jitsu and muay thai.
Seriously, I wish Z-12 wasn't backordered. I need some. Bad.
So now that I'm done with the Velocity Diet, I'm starting Westside for Skinny Bastards. Talk about some intense workouts. I plan on following it for 8 weeks, and then I think I"m going to try either Wendler's 5/3/1 or Waterbury's Huge in a Hurry.
By the way, it is just infomercials on the History Channel. Cry.
I met a girl two weeks ago. She's 29. I'm 21. Now, I'm not exactly the most talented womanizer, so I've only had two girlfriends ever, and they were both in high school. I didn't lose my virginity until my freshman year of college. Up until two weeks ago, I had had sex three times, with three different girls, and I was drunk all three times. They were all very unimpressive events.
Now this girl I met, the last two Saturdays we've been at it like rabbits. The first night we went at it for probably close to six hours. This last Saturday we did it for about 4 hours. I didn't ejaculate either time.
Basically what I'm trying to get at is that as of right now, I've found sex to be on the whole..... unbelievably bland and unimpressive. I mean, I can genuinely say that most times I jack off I get more satisfaction than the sex I've had.
Is there something horribly wrong with me? Or is it just that I've never boned a girl I actually had strong feelings for?