1/2 gallon of milk throughout the day
6:00 am - 3 eggs with cheese and 8 ounces of V8 Fusion with creatine
9:00 am - handful of nuts and raisins and a scoop of protein powder
11:00 am - leftovers from the asian ground turkey wraps last night
1:00 pm - Can of tuna, banana, broccoli, and carrots
3:00 PM - scoop of protein
4:00 pm - scoop of protein
6:30 pm - 1/2lb ground turkey with cheese, onion and green pepper, and 2 slices ezekiel bread
I must admit, the thought of going back to a cut to finally get lean for the first time in my life is starting to creep back up on me. I have a hard time justifying bulking when I'm unhappy with the amount of fat that I'm carrying now. I'm just so sick of feeling like my lifts are weak. I'll see how things start playing out with what I'm doing now. My weight was shooting up with this diet, but now it seems to be stabilizing a bit.
I'm realizing how much I had probably cut back too much when trying to lose weight. It just sort of happened over time, and I really lost track of myself. I started out losing weight just fine, but somewhere along the way I just let myself keep saying that less was more, and I constantly tried to make everything easier on myself. I know that if I want to ever reach my goals I have to keep focused, I can't let things get in the way.
I still have this whole low testosterone thing looming over my head, but I can't let it get me down. I have to believe that I'm better or I'll never get anywhere. I have a doctor's appointment at the end of the month, so I'll have to see what he says, since my last doctor was a complete idiot with no desire to put any effort into helping me.