I'm engaged to be married within the next several months. Me and my fiance's sex life has been active and I've tried to be open and as wild as he wants in bed. I initiate sex every day and am more than willing to do whatever it takes to satisfy him (any way he wants it).
Being a typical single guy before we met he kept a porn mag in his bathroom. At the beginning of our relationship this didn't phase me but now that we are planning on getting married and we've settled into a serious relationship it bothers me he still feels the need to keep his Swank magazine to jack off to. (Ok, wait and hear the whole story before you judge me....)
What I don't get is that the photos of these women in the Swank magazine are mostly of women using dildos. Now I own a vibrator and have offered to include it in our sex romps but he has seemed offended and not interested.
I don't understand why he will jack off to photos of women using objects but when I suggest doing this with him he gets all weird. And since I'm willing to pretty much do anything in bed with him (anytime) and initiate sex more than he does - why would he still jack off to porn mags?
Now the flip side of this is that I too enjoyed my porn mag before we got involved. I USED TO HAVE a pretty racy male magazine that showed guys with huge hard ons that I used to masturbate to but I threw it away after I fell in love - I really didn't feel the need to look at other men after I became serious with my fiance. My man is not that well endowed and I never wanted to risk him finding my magazine and feeling intimidated by the fact I liked looking at men with big erect hard ons. I do everything to try and make him feel like he's the stud and he-man of my dreams.
Since he has kept his porn mag and feels a need to refer to it despite my open sexuality I am wanting to buy me another stud mag to keep in my lingere drawer for days I want to play by myself.
Out of consideration and respect to him I trashed my mag but feel a little put off by the fact he hasn't parted ways with his Swank mag.
Think this would cause problems on down the road? My thoughts are why should I give up my secret masturbation fantasies if he's not! Nothing turns me on faster than seeing gorgeous men holding huge erections but I just didn't want to hurt my man in any way but figure he can do it so can I.
What do you guys think?