im afraid to squat! everything i read says "you want to get big?...squat!" come to think of it, between the beginning of oct '05 and mid nov '05 id put on some 20lbs, since then ive only put on ~5lbs. went from 174 to 202lbs. 5'9" by the way...but anyhow i must have been delusional before because id say that im just beginning to look like i work out...at least by my standards.. some girls tell me i look big, but some girls think abercrombie models look big so...
anyway, im rambling. when i gained the most weight i was squatting. my but blew up a bit. my thighs got bigger. dress pants went from a 32" waist pants to some pants (suit) needing a 36" just so my butt and thighs would fit. i feel like i should be squatting again to get things rolling. goal was 220lbs by feb and then lean out a little. also, i love deadlifting and benching, not so much squatting, but i feel like my bench and deadlift are stuck because im not squatting. i have dead'd 405lbs easily and benched 330lbs (which was hard). yet ive only squatted 345lbs successfully>clearly my weakest lift due to lack of attention/training.
anyway, now that ive come clean i need some help, some guidance, whatever. i used to train for looks, but now the strength part of it has really gotten me. i would like to be really strong and have great lifts and also look thick as hell if possible. hopefully theyll go hand in hand.
only supps currently are nitro-tech....and i know, grow tastes better, its cheaper, etc., but i hadnt bought grow for a while because i have been really broke and i just felt the need to go buy some protein right then and i went out and got the nitro-tech...although i did get it on a nice sale, i do apologize in advance to all those that i have offended by not getting grow.
anyway...im not sure ive really asked a question yet. i want to squat, but i dont want my butt getting bigger than it has, so im wondering if that will be the case if i start squatting again, or if maybe my butt was a little small to begin with so it grew quickly to balance things out...although id never been told or believed i had a small but..