Ask yourself how your mother would feel about you slacking in school, in your personal life and even with hygiene. Would she have been impressed?
Continue to do what would have made her proud.
It sounds like you are an only child. If so, it would have hurt her even more to know her only child is so depressed and has lost all motivation to do what he was doing so well.
Talking about things can help but if you wish to impact your father in any way, you need to lead by example.
Sorry maybe I wasn’t clear enough on back ground… My parents divorced when I was 5. I have 2 older sisters. My dad is happily remarried and my sisters both have loving husbands. Everyone else has a shoulder to cry on. My friends care for me… But they aren’t exactly the emotional type… It’s hard to open up to my dad. All he wants to do is fix it… It can’t be fixed with a few suggestions or practical advice… But I guess I’m desperate in hoping that invisible faces on a forum could fix my problems… There really is no way… I just want my life back. I want my health back… My mother had serious depression issues, but she was my rock in life… I could always rely on her. And even when she knew that there was nothing she could say to make it better. She listened anyway… She was always so encouraging. Even when the situation wasn’t… I still feel like I need her here. But she’s not…
No worries, I apologize for making any false assumptions.
You said she was the rock in your life? What if she would tell her friends the same about you?
Wouldn’t she want HER rock to be healthy, happy and successful in school? I am willing to bet that she would.
I agree with jchenky. Sometimes, it is ok to be idle and not have to explain yourself to others. As long as nothing you do ever becomes a pattern - in this case, your idleness could become a pattern for depression - and as long as there is a reason for (most) things that you do.
I don’t think anyone could fault you for ‘expecting invisible faces on a forum’ to fix your problems. You are human.