I feel your pain. You should know that your frustrations are actually shared by a lot of the general population. A person is not happy and puts on some weight then tries to drop it by going on a low calorie diet. It seems reasonable. After all 1500 calories seems like a good idea considering that RDA for calories is about 2000 for an average male.
But you have to see yourself as an athlete. You demand performance from your body. Since you demand performance from it, you have to fuel it like a machine. Once you fuel it, it will take care of itself. It will automatically drop it’s fat and increase it’s muscle as a method of adaptation to the exercise ( performance ) forced upon it.
It takes alot of energy to generate muscle tissue, recover tendon tissue, buildup skeletal mass, recover the nervous system, keep immunity high during the stress imposed by exercise etc etc etc… See what i mean? Those are VERY energy intensive processes.
In effect you have to unlearn what you have learned so far. Start your eating habits from scratch. You can actually follow a high calorie diet and lose fat without trying to lose fat. You can actually eat all the carbs you want providing they’re low glycemic.
But most importantly read the following article. Read it twice. Read it and understand it.
oh and BTW: I disagree with you being a troll. I don’t like the Elitist attitude some members have here. They’ll help someone if they’re a little lost. But if someone one is really lost and looking to learn they kick you to the curb. Like you’re not worth their precious time. I wonder where they would be at if noone took the time to write articles, share tips and such when they were rookies. How quickly they forget.