Welcome! Look forward to seeing you use the iron to wrestle back control of your life. It’s not a fix-all, but it’s great therapy. Here’s a quote from a TC Luoma article on the main page https://www.t-nation.com/powerful-words/10-great-things-about-lifting-weights that has motivated me when I needed it:
"There inevitably comes a time in everyone’s life when the bad stuff comes. It could be in the form of the death of a loved one, unrequited love, or legal or financial trouble. No one is immune.
Some handle the pain gracefully and heroically, realizing that time heals all and happiness, too, is inevitable. They seek solace through religion or spirituality, counseling, or the sturdy shoulders of good friends.
Others resort to destructive behavior like drugs, alcohol, or abusing the body and soul in general, while still others suffer perpetually, never quite ridding themselves of various demons.
But there’s one little-known therapy that’s remarkably effective and it’s good ol’ weight lifting. There are no ailments that iron can’t help cure. A hard, teeth gritting, grimacing, sweat-flying workout is the best therapy of all, and pushing something heavy so hard that it makes you cry out in pain is better than all the tears in the world.
Who knows if it’s chemical, psychological, or spiritual, but it gets rid of the demons.
Granted, the demons might come back later in the night at the wolf hour, as they’re wont to do, but you just get up the next morning and exorcise them through exercise all over again. Eventually, they look for a new home."