hey is righ, is ok, i don’t know maybe a addiction, the best record was 4 month, when i drink is friday and saturday, never drink alone, don’t feel that i need, but when i go outside, with people, they drink, i just feel that i want drink with them, the problem is i don’t stop so iam carreful, i would like to live a different life of that, and in the same time i need.
i was hyperactif maybe that play in my caractere also, and i know that i need to understand the deep reason of why, it is like my “big fight” in this life, to be freedom of that.
it is also like i progress in the gym and when i start to come back in this shit routine i lost, and is all of the time like that, and i know more i control more the thing start to be bigger because maybe i don’t understand how manage that, how to leave that and why i do that
i want to try to learn fighting sport maybe that can make me more peaceful inside
so maybe some peoples have a close experience with addiction and they can have good advice