17 y/o here. This is going to be a little bit of everywhere but bear with me.
I live with two very unreasonable parents, who, from my earliest memories, have forced me to accept “no” all the time, without solid reason.
My whole life has been spent trying to live for them, by their standards, and obey unreasonable orders. I’ve essentially become their bitch, especially my dad’s.
I have a dream of playing D1 Basketball and NBA basketball. I’m fighting with all I have to get there. But no one, not even my parents, believe in me. That’s not even the problem though, because I will always believe in myself.
The problem is that my parents keep trying to stop me from reaching my goals without reasoning. I’ve been consistently waking up at 4AM everyday to go to the gym and work on my game, and then go back to the gym after school, because the people who make it in basketball earned their stripes, and to make it you have to spend every moment you can practicing. I’ve been laughed at so much for having such dreams and self confidence. My parents seem to have a issue with my work ethic though, as with everything, and seek to limit me. It’s so frustrating because I feel powerless to them. In every area of my life I feel powerless. People think I’m weird, girls don’t like to talk to me because even though I’m attractive, my personality just doesn’t cut it. It just seems like who I am makes me prone to bullshit. I never have control over anything or get my way. I have to fight for an uncertain chance of reaching my goals. When I tell other people about my struggles, they say they wish their children had my work ethic. Yet, I can’t even fully utilize the work ethic I have because of my parents.
This is really starting to get on my nerves. Today, I had woke up at 4AM and took the bus to the gym and worked on my game. Then I sent to school, then back to the gym. When I came home my dad told my mom to tell me that I couldn’t go to the gym in the morning.
When I asked him why, he told me to turn around and get out of his room, saying that ge wouldn’t have that conversation with me. I was at a loss of words as usual, and he couldn’t be reasoned with without getting on the edge of a full blown argument or physical altercation (the usual), so I just left his room and locked the bathroom door and cried out of anger. I’m so tired of getting bitched and being a loser in every part of my life. People keep trying to stop me. Nobody believes in me, not even my parents. I’m willing to fight with everything I have for my dream, but everyone actively opposes it, especially my parents, the very people who once told me never to go easy on myself. My parents should be proud, yet they look down on me.