Legitimate question... so please no flaming besides any normal initiation hazing :). I am 6'4" - 300 lbs - and I have anger issues. My lifts are very modest compared to T-Nation... I don't take steroids... I only mention my size because I'm just relating it to some of the big boys on the site who may have faced my issues. I rarely sleep through the night due to night terrors. I also think I am showing signs of panic attacks like Tony Soprano did The Sopranos. In short, I suck...
I have the typical issues that lots of people have... marriage (not so great but love my kids very much), laid off (now commuting one hour both ways to much lesser job), kids coaches are idiots, etc. etc. Nothing special to legitimize being angry.
I read on this site every day. I see how people I admire act, talk, and treat people. That's what I want and wish to be around. I don't see that in my everyday life.
I recognize that I have issues. My Dad has had several heart issues so I know that being pissed off all the time may not be in my best interest.
I honestly start each thing (work day, commute, ball tournament) with the thoughts of "just do your job", "they are not worth going to jail or getting shot over", "relax and let the kids play". Then I see 1) whiny, pencil neck geeks at work crap on people (because they "can") 2) drivers that very dangerously cut people off, slam on breaks on interstate in front of drivers, give fingers, tailgate, swerve, etc. and 3) umpires or abusive parents that abuse their "authority" or act like fools around children without consequence.
I take the job stuff as much as I can because... heck, the girls have got to eat. The road rage and idiots at ball games... I could show improvement.
I always get very good information on this site on a variety of topics. Many on here are as big as I am ... most are definitely stronger... do you guys honestly just ignore or brush off these people??? Did you feel the way I do but developed a "system" to deal with realities of the modern world outside your control? I want to... but I just find it difficult to believe that "real men and women", like yourselves, can just let these people float in and out of your life... crapping on what they may.
I am seriously asking for ideas and help... thanks!