This is going to be your major problem. MAjor fucking problem.
Consistency is king. Diet is the Queen. Your desire/drive/fucking balls are the ace.
Pick any routine that isn't fucking retarded, get strong as fuck on everything, and eat moderate amounts of quality foods consistently.
Once you've done that for 6 months, then worry about the stupid "should I bulk or cut" bullshit.
If you can't be focused enough to do the basics for even a short amount of time no words on this forum are going to help you, and no one should take the time to walk you through everything.