Hi all, I last posted about being able to afford my diet. I stopped training because I couldn’t fund my diet. The cost of living, just doesn’t leave room for a good diet. Whats more, I bought an MPV, because of my increased family. The arrival of my fourth child meant going really skint to buy a bigger car.
It gives 20mpg and with rising fuel prices, food, electricity and gas the past 6 weeks has been hard on us. I am an ex smoker or should I say, I was. We’ve been so stressed trying to cope, and on top of that, being stuck with a vehicle that’s costly to own, the wife and I have been arguing constantly. When I started last year, I quit smoking, the loss of a baby had really stressed me out, let alone my wife, I smoked cannabis the minute I woke up to the moment I went to bed.
My weight was 9 and a half stone. So I quit, put on weight and started lifting. I managed a year and a half, and put down my weights back in August, bought some ciggys and some weed and chilled out. I ran out of weed on Saturday and today I bought some Tobacco. In my guilt, I’ve Logged in to T-Nation.
Can I say this? I’m nearly 40, I don’t think I’d ever be Mr Universe or enter any competition, I just enjoyed lifting, and when I quit smoking, that’s what I did. How can I lift without being able to eat properly? I can I stop being angry or peed off, when the bills pile up? I know the credit crunch is effecting many people,I don’t drink beer, and don’t have any other pleasures, including making love to the wife.
Her cesarean wound has taken 4 months to heal and it still weeps. Its not the be all and end all, its been over a year since we last made love, and another thing, sleepness nights with babe, hasn’t provide the sleep we both need, so poor diet hasn’t helped there either. Plus our families don’t help out, we’re pretty much alone and do everything. By time the kids are in bed, we’re too tired for each other.
So, how can I train without a good diet, stay un-stressed without a smoke and repair without proper sleep?
Sorry its lengthy, I just want to get back to how I was before I stopped training.