Blood Work, life and advice needed.
I`m 39 and just had one hell of a year, decided to divorce a year ago, first few months were great, met a girl was in love but we broke off, ever since I have insomnia and the last couple of months libido is gone, I get erections just fine but I have a hard time coming off, masturbating with porn seems easier something I always hated.
I still like my ex wife and we are trying to get back together, I have a daughter, who made divorce even more harder as she constantly complained about my absence during her everyday.
Long story short I went to a Psychiatrist and an Endo, both diagnosed me with depression, took brintellix for five days and gave up, I feel anxious but not depressed. You may ask why I´m here, well 3 years ago I asked a Total Test from my MD because I´m an avid cyclist and wanted to know my range, it came back 278ng/dl, but I never had issues with staying lean, gaining mass (my legs became very muscular because of sport) or libido.
Fast forward to last month, at the height of insomnia, worries about family life and daughter my libido just went away. With the old test range in my mind I went to one of those TRT clinics and they gave me a form for a battery of tests, I took the tests but never had the courage to go back to the clinic, I have always been against meds
Anyway the results
Total Test 289ng/dl (at 8:00AM)
SHBG 26,30 NMOL/l
Test Free Calculated 6,42 ng/dl
Test Biodisposiable 150,43 ng/dl
Estradiol 33,3 pg/ml
FHS 2,2 mUI/ml
TSH 1,805 uUI/ml
Test even went up from 4 years (at the time I had a major flu when I took the test and it was a little later than 8:00AM if I remember)
I just want some input from people that have gone through this before, could depression and lack of sleep for almost a year finally catch up and kill libido? Can I get my HPTA back up? Considering my number I must be secondary?
Also I was diagnosed with tuberculosis, its not active and I only found out because I have psoriasis and I had to take a huge number of tests if I wanted to take a biological med which I already gave up. Also I was on Metrotexate for psoriasis the first time I tested Total T.
Thanks and sorry for the long post