My name is Chris, I'm 27 and I have done three AAS cycles. I have been lifting for 7 years. Here are some stats:
Bwt: 83 kg (183 lbs) - 5ft11
Bench 1RM: 140 kg (315 lbs)
Squat 1RM: 200 kg ( 440lbs)
Here is my problem. I have made some fantastic gains on testosterone in the past, but I never keep any of my gains. During my first cycle (Test 500mg/week for 12 wks) I made the mistake of not using HCG, and only used Nolva and Clomid.
I lost all my gains within a week, got extremely depressed etc.. The next cycle I did 500mg test for 12 weeks again, and used HCG, and kept maybe 20% of my gains, which is nothing. After 3 months off my test levels were still very low (320 and the range is 300-1000) but I couldn't wait any longer and had to do another cycle because I was so sick of losing all my gains.
So I did a 750mg/week test cycle for 15 weeks. I wanted the cycle to last 12 weeks, but after 11 weeks, I got a infection in my leg, because of a bacteria. I used all necessary hygiene precautions but got infected anyway, so it must've been the gear I was using.
I spent nearly 2 weeks in hospital and during that time I stayed on Dbol so as to not loose muscle. I was on HCG from weeks 4 to 11 (until I went to the hospital) then 2 more weeks of Dbol plus HCG after I got out the hospital.. I used letro during the cycle because I was starting to get a bit of gyno.
I then used Clomid and Nolva.. Well, I lost all my gains again.. This is getting really depressing. So my question is.. What am I doing wrong ?? I seem to be doing everything by the book, yet I can't keep my gains. I have put so much effort and money into this, and the results in the end are shit !
My question is, is there anything missing from my PCT ? I'm currently using GHRP-6 but it doesnt seem to be making a difference. Could IGF-1 do the trick ? What about a cortisol blocker ? I know my cortisol is usually quite high.
I'm actually even considering doing blast and cruise just to be able to keep my gains, but that would mean staying on forever, and possibly not being able to have children..
Another thing to try would be to take a less suppressive steroid such as Anavar, and then use a powerful PCT, so as not to be completely shut down and increase my chances of recovery.
Any advice or input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks guys.