Before anyone says anything, I have read and read and read, all day on this forum. I read the Christian Thibaudeau articles, and I've been reading Chad Waterbury's "Huge in a Hurry" ... a lot of what I've read on here is centered on gaining muscle, which I want to do, but I don't want to gain a ton of muscle weight either. I have sort of weird story, and fact is I think I fucked myself up pretty bad by making some serious mistakes with my weightloss...
I used to weigh over 425 pounds and over the last 16 months I've cut that down to 207lbs. The problem is, as I now understand, that I stupidly did this all through calorie deficit and cardio, cardio, cardio. Very little weight training.
So, ok.. i screwed up. I get it. I accept it. Now I just want to do the best I can to fix it, and I honestly just don't know where to begin. I haven't had it measured, but I'm sure I've got probably 30% body fat. Dunno how much is loose skin. I know I could have this assessed if I join a gym and get a trainer, but none of the trainers have glowing recommendations at the nearby gyms and I've heard so many nightmare stories about trainers anyway... I'd rather keep those hundreds of dollars. My company has a pretty well fully equipped gym with a lot of free weights, benches and such. The only thing it doesn't have are cable stations. So I have a gym at my disposal, which is why I can say I haven't joined a gym with a straight face and still post this here.
Anyway... I don't want to bulk up with a lot of muscle necessarily. At least not right now. I just want to get lean. Look tighter. Fitter. I'm not under the delusion that I should be going after a "shredded" look right now, but ultimately I'd like a nice, cut look. Someday. Eventually.
I'm dedicated to correcting my lifestyle. I've remained focused and determined for over a year toward it... the problem is I just did it wrong. Now I want to bring that same focus and dedication to doing it right and getting results.
But where do I start? What can I expect? If I increase my caloric intake in protein to build the muscle mass I want, can I expect a big weight gain in the short term before burning off more of the fat? If I know my DEE and deduct about 20% from that as Thibaudeau suggests for a fat loss goal it's a little over 2410 caloriesâ??should I just jump in and start consuming that much now, or should I gradually increase my caloric intake from the deficit I've been eating at (1000 to 1500/day)?
Any pointers, advice, hints .. anything at all. I promise I will always be respectful and receptive to anything you guys can offer. And even if you're rude, I'll just bite my tongue. I'm not here to waste anyone's time or pick fights or pretend I know a lot because I've read a lot. I just really want to change the way I look. I want to go to the beach and take my shirt off without being embarrassed that, even after losing half my body weight, I'm flabby.