5/3/1 (body weight template) - Refreshment Cycle
Cycle 2, Week 1, Day 3
Long store short; lack of sleep, almost no food for multiple days, stress and depression all made my workout for today a piece of shit. I had to deadlift 3x5 week, set 1, 2 went well, set 3 (135kg x 5+ reps) failed to even raise the bar from the ground. I don't cheat myself, I know I'm very weak, I lost 2 kgs since I fought with my wife. I decided to stop the workout, went outside to relax and re-estimate the situation. Returned back home almost midnight and made a moderate meal (6 fried eggs with slices of tomatoes and onions). I then directly went to bedroom and gave my wife a big hug. I didn't speak or discuss anything about the issues. Just gave her the hug, kisses, etc. In fact; she was down to earth and really need that hug. We didn't speak, she cried and I only said I love you dear. Nothing more or less. After that I felt better.
To be honest; I can't imagine my life without her, she is the corner stone of everything in my life. I'm the man, the pillar of the house, it doesn't matter who was wrong, but I'm the one who has to take the action, I was wrong cause I was waiting for her to say "Sorry I did a mistake". It is fool, never wait for a woman to start apology. Just let her to feel safe between your arms, then tell her what was wrong, and discuss her mistakes. Nothing more to be said!
After lots of teardrops and kisses, I told her we need to eat, we are losing weight, going weaker, and our mode is bad, so lets boost the leptin (she laughed btw!!!). We went to the kitchen, made some eggs with chicken and potatoes, slice of bread, and some fresh dates as a desert. I ate to my maintenance and boosted my glycogen. Today I feel too much better, no bloating (I didn't increase my salt, hence no water retention). Still feel leaner and my muscles appear little full.
Today will be my bench press day, I hope I will do well.
Thanks MarkKo and The_Myth for your care and support.