So I get everything out that I need so I can pin my glute. The first thing to go wrong was I crushed the stupid ampule when I was trying to open it. I mean completely crushed. It practically exploded inbetween my fingers. I usually have a hard time trying not to destroy them when I crack them open and I take my time, but I figured since this would be the 3rd time I’ve pinned myself, I’d be an old pro… I guess I rushed it a little.
I had tiny pieces of glass right in the tip of my finger. Strike One. Now, it usually takes me a good 10-15 minutes to build up the nerve to pin myself. I don’t know why. It doesn’t hurt, I guess it’s just the awkwardness of being twisted around, the fear of doing something wrong and trying to do everything one handed.
Next, I was using a different syringe than the ones I’ve used before. After I jabbed myself I could not aspirate the damn thing with one hand and I couldn’t reach my other hand around far enough to assist. I should have probably just skipped aspiration, but instead I pulled out. Strike two. I played with the plunger a little bit sort of getting it greased so I knew it slide a bit easier and I got psyched up to pin myself again.
I jabbed and it hurt, a sharp pain I haven’t felt before. That was the first time it actually hurt. I tried to push farther and it hurt more, so I pulled out. I should have recognized that as strike three, but I didn’t… at least not at that time. I cleaned the other cheek and got ready to jab myself with my left hand, which makes it almost 210% more difficult for me.
I tried to psych myself up and it just wasn’t happening. I was standing there, naked, for at least 1 hour. Mostly I was twisting myself up then untwisting and breathing a lot. I recapped the damn thing and left it “pre-loaded” for tomorrow. I finally accepted my third strike, I was out!
I hate pinning myself! Hopefully it goes better tomorrow. For those that had a hard time the first couple of times, Does it ever get easier?