So Im a 21 year old first year physics student (had two years out) who used to get picked on at high school for just being… different I guess. Nothing in particular just something didnt seem to work with the other people. I had a few friends who were the nerds/outcasts and I soon turned to weightlifting as somewhere for me to go instead of sitting on my own in the playground. The weights room soon became the only real place I felt safe and happy… and to some extent this is how I feel today - its a major part of my life.
As for my general personality… Im quite passive, my hearts always in the right place and generally always been a goody two shoes due to upbringing. I tend to suck with bar/club situations in the social sense and tend to avoid them.
So I decided to go to uni and further my interest in physics… all was going swimmingly until a couple of months in I went from having a load of friends to just a few… didnt bother me much… I liked those guys and I still had the weights room.
Today I went up to wish someone who I thought I was “ok” with happy birthday after being invited up for a few drinks (I didnt have any alcohol - I gave up about 6 months ago). This guy is 25, about to drop out of uni some time between now and july and hopes to return next year to resit everything. Generally hes a funny guy but seems to get a bit worked up some times - particulary after a couple of drinks (sets off fire estinguishers, plays pranks etc.).
The guy sprays some drink on me… I grab a beer and chase him down corridoor and he hides in someones room… I wait for him… he opens door and squirts shaving cream in my eyes and whilst I yelp at the stinging he laughs his head off and slams door. I clean myself up… come back a bit annoyed - manage to force the door open and ask for an apology - only to be laughed in the face.
I walked off…
Guy walks past room, punches door and yells out “CUNT!”.
A bit later…
I hear movement outside and I look through peepwhole and hes throwing a bottle full of piss on my door.
A bit later…
He kicks my door really hard a few times.
And just now he tried to spray fire estinguisher under my door but I anticipated this and put a shirt down beforehand to prevent it going everywhere
I just shut down the moment he laughed in my face… its like a switch went off and I lost all confidence I had rebuilt. Im too scared to even open my door or window.
So yeah… currently I feel like a pathetic excuse for a “man”.
What do I do? A few people suggested I call warden/security… but im terrified that once they go it gets worse and maybe I end up being hurt =/
Currently sleeping with everything shut and locked and a 10 inch razor sharp knife by my bed.