Guys & Gals,
I recently found this site and thought I would use this site as my way to getting back on track. I know I am going to get some backlash and possible hesitation to the questions or concerns I may have.
Anyway, I havent been to the gym in the last 10 years. It has been a rough 10 years losing my 1st wife, having kids, etc etc. I come to all you guys today because I am a little lost on how to proceed to get the motivation to get back in the gym and get back to good health.
I am 6"2" 220lbs and approximaetly 25% body fat. I am a prior college baseball player and athlete who used to love the gym. I am fimilar with AAS as I recieved great results with minimal test and anavar 10 years ago I have the genetics to look descent when I am in a routine. I work about 50 hours a week in the OR as a medical device sales rep. Time and laziness has hindered me from getting back on track.
I come to you guys and gals today to ask for some advise. As I stated I am 38 and have all the kids I am gonna have. I am needing a little kick of motivation to get the juices flowing again. I am going to a Kettlebell workout tommorow with a trainer and I am hoping that will be the start.
I have been doing some research and reading a little up on a few AAS that I would like to supplement into this "new" program. I had blood work done and my current Test levels are at 450 I realize that is ok, but at my age and current mental state, I figured doing a possible 200-250 mgs of test to help supplement my activity. Maybe even 20mg of Anavar along with the Test. Question, should I begin this as soon as tommorow to help with the recovery and to get it going as I get back to the gym. Also my IGF levels are slightly low. Was most likely going to supplement GH into this program. I dont not want to be big and jacked, just cut up and healthy. I need this more mentally than physically, but figured I will achieve both as I dive back into the gym.
I am scarred as hell to get back in the gym as I feel the recovery time is going to be a very painful process and I just dont want to give up. I am not a puss, I am willing to work for it. Just scares me that I have let things slip to this and it is a bit scarry to start all over again. Family priorities and work has interferred with my health.
That is why I come to this board for the "goog" and the "bad". PLease feel free to say whatever you would like to say as I feel I can only learn from you guys. I will be fine with "lashing out" as it is no one fault but mine. I am just looking for advise that will assist in moving forward as I believe this could save me from a mental breakdown
Thanks for reading and listening