So I am doing a small amount of roids, check out my log if you want to know the details.
Basically everyday is a great day at the gym.
Somehow I am losing interest quickly in the gym thing. When I envision whatever weight I will be able to lift one day, it doesn't do me anything anymore. I do not care.
Like if it is just not something awesome to do anymore.
Normally gains on things like the front squat are pretty damn hard to get, lots of setbacks and you crush yourself on a wall often, but now even if I am steadily gaining 5lbs per week, every week and will be past my record in no time it's just not that exciting.
I never really cared about being big honestly and I don't care about what anyone else does. I don't take pictures of my physique. Right now I am pretty buff and aesthetic to be honest. I like my body, obviously it will continue getting fitter, etc, because that's the point of exercising but I am very happy with what I have.
I just really liked to exercise, the grind, rewards, feeling good, etc.
Seems like I just dont care anymore, it's pointless now.
My E2 is in check by the way, and I never had that much Test. in my blood in my life as right now. Isn't any better than my "low-normal" T normal self.
What the heck