which low post count, your own, or the second persona you adopted?
Steroids: illegal and banned in the sport you claim to want to play
You: guy who wants to use anyway, get caught and make them crack down even more on rec users
Us not helping: people that won't help you until you stop acting like a child who doesn't get what he wants
at 23 if you had even the slightest chance of playing, you would already be a starter. the only way i could see you justifiably using steroids is if a professional career is on the line. i'm going on a limb here and assuming it isn't.
i have worked with many smaller young football players, and get asked about steroids all the time, but never has the focus been on obtaining a ludicrous amount of mass (more often, "i won't get so big it'll slow me down, right?"), rather on performance which is what decides whether you play or not.
any 300 lb lineman will be able to throw you whether you are 180 or 230, how are you so slow that they can even get a hand on you? my guess is your weight goal comes from body dysmorphia (i have personal and professional experience with this, not talking out my ass).
nobody here wants to shoot you down or keep you from achieving. however, most of us have been around the block for a while and we can see a disaster waiting to happen a mile away. and we want no part of that.
most if not all of your goals could be reachable without the sauce. even if you choose to use (we don't question the choice, just the approach), you need to show us that you have made extreme efforts to modifiy your dietary behavior and are constantly working in the gym to become a better athlete, ie: dynamic warmup, mobility drills, movement training, energy systems work, etc.