I haven't posted here in a long time. I'm mainly a lurker, and I prefer it that way.
But now I'm asking for advice. I seriously, just don't know what to do.
I'm your typical 16yr old skinny fat case. I know most people will just tell me to "eat right, lift hard, and It'll all come together bro". That's what someone told me before. I did that, and from my experience it just doesn't work like that.
A year ago I had maybe 13-14% bf and I was roughly 160lbs. Now I'm around 200lbs and I look worse than I started. I don't know my bf percentage, I just know that I look like utter shit. Weak shit.
I have eaten 'right' for years (my mom is a health freak). I eat a diet low in carbs and high in protein, with lots of fruit and vegetables. My carbs come from oats, and occasionally rice (but to be honest I've cut that out a few weeks ago).
I drink lots of water. I never cheat. I don't go out partying or drink alcohol and my friends think it's weird (I don't tell them I go to the gym, because, quite frankly, they would laugh looking at my physique).
So anyway, last August I decided the best thing to do was a clean bulk, so I started a full body routine (Chad's TBT I think - bear in mind this post is in NO WAY dissing his program) focussed on the basic compound lifts.
I lifted very hard (I'm serious, I'm not a pussy in the weight room. I've passed out in the gym several times). At first it was good, my strength went up, my bf stayed the same, I though "yeah, this is great, I'm on the right track."
I gained no muscle. The scale went slowly up, but it ended up to be just fat. I'm still weak. I look like that guy on the "How To Dirty Bulk" thread somewhere around here, albeit with more fat.
So now I'm going to ask the classic question: Cut or Bulk? (I'm laughing while typing this)
Actually, screw that, I don't know if even cutting or bulking is what I need. I feel pissed off when I see skinny bastards complaining about "how they can't put on weight, boo hoo!"
I would kill to be in a position like that.
I think maybe my metabolism is so screwed up that my body will add fat no matter what I do.
My mom complains about my gut and about the fact that I can't fit into any of the pants I have from a year ago. It's just fucking sad.
Please don't tell me to clean up my diet and lift harder. But to be honest, I guess any advise would be great. I seriously start thinking my genetics are just full of shit. But I love weightlifting, it's like therapy to me. It might sound silly but to me it would a horrible tragedy if my bullshit genetics would force me to remain a weak, fat bastard forever.
So what do I do? I just need some guidance. Please.